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C41 Part 6
The frame count in my camera has been advancing as it has done in the past but the outside world (and the internet) has not been aware of the images I have been making. Some time has passed since I last shared my work and there are reasons for this but none of any real consequence; my creations are personal and so are my shortcomings.
It sounds silly; I am afraid to post images and get worried sharing them. My reasoning behind this? I am not certain if they are ‘good’. I am preventing myself from progressing to the next stage/ phase/ level of my practice by succumbing to resistance. I am in the process of changing this right now.
“I am an imposter and my images aren’t worth sharing.”
I have been internally fighting thoughts like this one above for as long as I have been creating/ producing/ making and I’m sure there are others out there who can identify with this feeling. There have been many books, blog posts, YouTube videos that deal with similar concepts that I have used to teach and prepare myself for positive change. I have not given up, I have slowed somewhat in my output but the desire and compulsion to create, whether that is an image, auditory works, writing or something physical is very much still there.
The good news? The good news is that I have identified this ‘imposter syndrome’ in myself and now can find ways to combat, suppress and perhaps one day overcome it. I have done a great amount of thinking, reading and more recently convincing myself that I do create great work, I can share this work and that I will make more great work. This has been a big step for me personally and it is relief to have the intellectual component understood as I now move to the next phase; action/ doing/ practicing.
I have learnt and now believe that perfect image does not exist and this website is a one step towards putting that thinking behind me. Change and education require practise, commitment and of course, perseverance.
The pseudonym/ alias/ artist name Ambient Fridge will always be part of my practice and I will no longer be updating or producing works using that name at this time.
So here we have the C41 Process Part 6 which I had started to collate over two and a half years ago. I have the goal of sharing collections more frequently so I can improve as an artist, develop good habits, overcome resistance with an added bonus that my audience (thanks) does not have to wait years between posts.
If you read this, thanks, and I say to you, Hello and welcome to andremoon.com.au